I was sure that April was going to be a good month for me. There was no way it wouldn't be a good month. I finished up the 75 hard strong within the first days of the month I had a plan for April and I had great habits set to have an amazing month.
And then things went south. I ended up getting a bad stomach bug. It pretty much knocked me flat for about a week. That week was enough to cause a major upheaval in those wonderful habits that I had set up for myself.
What habits were in place that I have totally forsaken? Water is one of them. I was in the habit of drinking a fair amount of water. It wasn't always easy, but I did it.. After I was sick I was lucky to get 8-10 ounces. I just wasn't thinking about it and well it just didn't happen. Another habit was the exercise. I had been exercising religiously in the morning at 5AM. I haven't done it once since being sick. Outdoor walks, you know when I typically end up walking in a graveyard? Yeah, that hasn't happened either....not once!
Furthermore, I picked up some bad habits! The worst two days of being sick I was so sick that I didn't read or even watch tv. But after I started to feel a bit better I turned on the tv. I NEVER turn on the tv during the day. But I did because I was sick.....and the TV has been on almost every day since then. The second bad habit? Naps. I take a LOT of naps! SERIOUS naps too. Not just 15-20 minutes. NO I am sleeping 3-4 hours. (And don't worry, I still sleep at night).
So things were not going well. And then something else happened. I started to get mad amounts of rejection letters to the job applications that I have out. Seriously, an undue amount of rejections. Couple that with the definitive lack of interest in my application and my already tenuous grip on my emotional well being crumbled. I stopped doing pretty much anything. I would still look for a job and submitted quite a few applications. But other than that, I did nothing.
It was a bad combination.....good habits broken...bad habits started and a small touch of depression (pity party if you want to call it that.)
Midway through last week I promised myself that after my time job hunting (which I typically do during my first part of the day) that I was going to get stuff done. But I kept falling asleep and not getting anything done. I am telling you, I was on a really slippy slope! But, I am proud to say that I have been turning it around this week. I have scoured my floors. I've weeded outside, I've hand washed a quilt. I have been knocking things off my to do list......and I haven't taken any naps. (Weirdly enough, I sleep more poorly at night without the naps than I was with the naps....go figure.)
It feels good to get some things done around the house for sure. I have been working on my water consumption and while I may not be exactly where I need/want to be, I have made headway in getting more water. The other things.......they are coming!
