High to Low

I was sure that April was going to be a good month for me.  There was no way it wouldn't be a good month.  I finished up the 75 hard strong within the first days of the month I had a plan for April and I had great habits set to have an amazing month.  

And then things went south.  I ended up getting a bad stomach bug.  It pretty much knocked me flat for about a week.  That week was enough to cause a major upheaval in those wonderful habits that I had set up for myself.

What habits were in place that I have totally forsaken?   Water is one of them.   I was in the habit of drinking a fair amount of water.  It wasn't always easy, but I did it..   After I was sick I was lucky to get 8-10 ounces.  I just wasn't thinking about it and well it just didn't happen.  Another habit was the exercise.   I had been exercising religiously in the morning at 5AM.  I haven't done it once since being sick.  Outdoor walks, you know when I typically end up walking in a graveyard?   Yeah, that hasn't happened either....not once!    

 

Furthermore, I picked up some bad habits!    The worst two days of being sick I was so sick that I didn't read or even watch tv.  But after I started to feel a bit better I turned on the tv.   I NEVER turn on the tv during the day.  But I did because I was sick.....and the TV has been on almost every day since then.  The second bad habit?   Naps.  I take a LOT of naps!   SERIOUS naps too. Not just 15-20 minutes.  NO I am sleeping 3-4 hours.  (And don't worry, I still sleep at night).

 So things were not going well.  And then something else happened.   I started to get mad amounts of rejection letters to the job applications that I have out.  Seriously, an undue amount of rejections.   Couple that with the definitive lack of interest in my application and my already tenuous grip on my emotional well being crumbled.  I stopped doing pretty much anything.  I would still look for a job and submitted quite a few applications.  But other than that, I did nothing.   

It was a bad combination.....good habits broken...bad habits started and a small touch of depression (pity party if you want to call it that.)

Midway through last week I promised myself that after my time job hunting (which I typically do during my first part of the day) that I was going to get stuff done.   But I kept falling asleep and not getting anything done.  I am telling you, I was on a really slippy slope!   But, I am proud to  say that I have been turning it around this week.  I have scoured my floors.  I've weeded outside, I've hand washed a quilt.  I have been knocking things off my to do list......and I haven't taken any naps.   (Weirdly enough, I sleep more poorly at night without the naps than I was with the naps....go figure.)    

It feels good to get some things done around the house for sure.  I have been working on my water consumption and while I may not be exactly where I need/want to be, I have made headway in getting more water.   The other things.......they are coming!