8/14/2023
Has it already been a week since I last posted? Ok, So actually more than a week. ~sigh~ Where does time go? I swear I wake up and start the day blink and then it's over! I feel as if I'm constantly on the go for most of the time that I'm awake! It's nuts!
Enough is Enough
So my first week of trying to take control of the one thing in my life that I have utter control of was partially successful. I was a whole lot more cognizant of what I was eating. and I made some better choices in my food selections. However, I tracked next to nothing. So I have no clue how many calories I ate. So not exactly a failure, but not exactly a success. I am calling it a successful baby step back into being fully on track!
The weekend rolled around and we celebrated Jason's birthday. I did eat a bit too much food over the weekend. But I vowed that Monday was the day that I was stepping up my game. I didn't promise myself full perfection, I simply vowed to step up the game.
So bright and early Monday morning I was exercising. (5:30AM). I tracked my food for the day. I felt really good about my efforts. My water consumption was a bit spotty, but baby steps. Like I said, I'm not expecting perfection simply positive steps in the right direction. Ohhh and did I mention that my stomach hurt on Monday morning yet I STILL exercised?
It is Tuesday morning about 9AM while I'm writing this (IT is working on my work computer and has taken control. leaving me with nothing to do but stare at the computer while they click and make changes...so perfect time to write a blog post) . I have already tracked my food that I'm planning on eating today.
8/21/2023
I am doing such a horrible job of juggling everything. I literally had my last post on August 6th. I started to write a post on August 14th (above) and I am just getting back to it now on Monday August 21st! What in the world?
So Exercise last week was pretty good. I exercised all but one day! I also already exercised this morning at 5AM! Go me! My food. It wasn't terrible, but I only tracked sporadically. I am really struggling with getting back to tracking regularly. Really struggling with that! Time is one of the issues. (obviously since it took me a week to get back to writing this post!) My weight is fluctuating in a 5 pound range. I don't like when I'm at the top end of that range, but I am happy that I'm staying within that same range!
That said, I am sitting here saying to myself "MaryFran, you are 50 years old. The weight is going to catch up to you sooner rather than later. " I have been lucky thus far in life that I have not really struggled with any weight related diseases. Heck, I've been pretty healthy all around. But I have this oppressive fear that it is going to come around and bite me in the arse! Seriously, I have a gal I went to high school with that just had open heart surgery/triple bypass! I'm scared! Yet, I struggle to get myself under control. How in the world can I turn my fear into actual actions. I feel insane to even be typing about my fear yet continuing to be lax about my tracking of my food.
I want to be thin. I want to feel good. I want to not feel uncomfortable in clothes. I don't want my legs to ache. I have the reasons. I just need to get the gumption!
I am the one in control of my eating. I know it! Yet am I REALLY taking control?