It’s time for some straight talk. It’s time to figure out what I want, or should I say what I really want! Weight loss is hard! It’s the hardest thing in the world. It requires amazing mental willpower. It requires astronomical amounts of determination. It requires our whole mind, body and spirit at times. Losing weight is not for the faint of heart! But I know from experience that the end result is better than anything I could imagine! I know that the difficulty makes all the pain and hard work and yes, sheer grit worth it. But why does it have to be so difficult?
I’m working on getting my mojo back. I’m being a lot more cognizant of my food choices. I’m tracking, for the most part! It’s the parts that I am not tracking that is killing my efforts. Doritos, I’m looking at you! Mr. Cake, your getting the stink eye!
I know that some of the unplanned and the un-tracked indulgences are stress related indulgences. The Doritos were shoveled into my mouth while tears coursed down my cheeks. The cake, well baking is my therapy; eating the cake is too! That is no excuse though. I should have known better.
All I can say is that I’m here. I’m working through these emotions. (Or trying to…) and every minute is a chance to start fresh again. I’ll keep restarting and vowing to conquer this weight loss thing as long as it takes.
I once wrote that weight loss is a series of battles. Sometimes you have to lose some battles to position yourself better for the next bigger battle. Sometimes you have to lose a battle because a lesson needed to be learned about your enemy. But it’s not really the individual battles that count. What counts is that you win the war!
Doritos aside…(they are gone)….refocusing…heading into battle once again!
