I self sabotaged and I'm so disappointed in myself! Why do I do these things?
In my last post I was so excited because I actually had lost 5 Pounds. True, it was due to a stomach bug. But seriously, I don’t look a gift horse in the mouth! I was pumped because I was determined that I was going to make sure that I didn’t gain that hard won weight back! I had a plan! I planned my weekend and I was ready to see it through.
I took a day off on Friday so that I could clean the house and get everything in line. I was on the go all day! I implemented my plan. I prepared the food that I needed and I was doing great! I was exhausted by the end of the day because I was literally on the go from 5AM until 7PM! Zoe stayed in step with me all day…she was one tired puppy!
Saturday is where it went downhill. I started the day with heading down the road to see my mom. I started early and had my water with me. I do intermittent fasting so I SHOULD have been good until I got home at 12-1! I ran a few errands on the way there and I couldn’t get food out of my mind! I wanted food….junk food! Yeah, I ended up getting a McDonald’s breakfast meal. (Bacon egg cheese bagel). First of all…there was no way I was really hungry! Second of all…McDonald’s? In my mind I was thinking, ‘all is not lost, I can not eat lunch and I’ll make up the difference’. Ha! Famous last words! I ate lunch when I got home. Of course I did! Dinner was Five guys. Seriously, one burger is my full daily allotment of calories! Ohhh. And that healthy snack that I had prepared…it went out the window when we ended up picking up a cake from the store. Of course I had cake! Saturday was a bust!
Sunday was Easter. I nibbled in the morning while I prepped. I ate a full lunch. And I was honestly stuffed when I was done. I wasn’t hungry for dinner. But did that stop me from having a ham salad sandwich and a piece of cake? Of course it didn’t!
What is wrong with me????
The weekend was tiring! I was on the go for pretty much every second …from sun up on Friday until sundown on Sunday. I’m telling you…the pup mirrored my energy!
It’s Monday morning. I recommenced exercise after my week off due to being sick. My exercise and energy was totally lackluster. I know it! Mondays are typically more rough…so I’m not panicked.
I have to tally up points for the first week of April for my points challenge. It was definitely NOT the week I envisioned when I planned my challenge. But that’s ok. I wanted to plan a challenge that would allow me to compete against myself and NEVER feel like a failure! Beating last weeks number SHOULD be easy this week!!!