How in the world is it really the end of November? This last month has flown by! And seriously, is it really the Christmas season already? I'm NOT READY!
I have been busy. It feels as if I am on the go all the time. The only time I have to sit is when I'm at work (I work a desk job). Every night after work we are out running and doing something or the other. Consequently, I am always feeling as if I am failing at everything, because I feel so rushed.
Let me just get it out there and over with. November saw no weight loss on my part! I am disgusted with myself and KNOW that I have to make changes in my lifestyle. The good thing,, I'm not gaining. I am maintaining. So while I WANT to be thinner, I am counting a maintain as a huge victory.
In my last post I wrote about I had this depression (or whatever you want to call it) culminate in a panic attack. LUCKILY, that bad one was the only one. I have managed to walk away, divert my thoughts and attention and have managed to keep the anxiety at a more manageable level. (Meaning I haven't had any more instances when I can't breathe and am sure I'm going to die). Jason sticks pretty close to me and keeps an eye on me pretty much all the time.
Yes, Jason is able to keep an eye on me pretty much all the time because he is still off of work. We have passed the first complete month since his accident with the axe. He is now able to walk on the foot. And we are working to be able to put his foot in a shoe. The wound was still open and draining at his last visit (which was right before the month mark) but he did get the stitches out. So per doctors orders, he is still restricted until that wound is totally healed and until he can manage to put his foot in a shoe. (and walk and move it normally). Until then, he will not be cleared for work.
I somehow managed to complete my porch scene in miniature. The kit was ordered back before we bought our house and I have managed to carve out some times here and there (can we say 3-4 in the morning when I can't sleep) to work on this scene. My scene is "Appalachian Wash Day" and I am quite happy with it. It was created for a dollhouse creating competition. I was seriously thinking I was going to be working up until the last minute (Submission Deadline is December 9th) but I managed to complete it and I got my pictures taken and my submission was entered just this week. It was a good project for me as my mind tends to focus on my current projects (and ideas for projects) so that took me away from the anxiety at times.
