I was so proud of myself this past Friday when I had my official weigh in. And my pride took a beating when I actually weighed on and showed a two pound gain. (Maybe that is it’s own lesson to heed the the biblical verse ‘pride goeth before fall’)
Whatever happened I wanted to give up. Why am I doing this to myself? Am in insane? This is pure torture!
But I’m NOT giving up! I’m not out for the count. But I am taking a step back and reevaluating!
After my vow to throw in the towel and give up passed I jumped at the thought of this and that ‘diet’. Maybe if I ate only grapefruit for the next two weeks. You know...I once knew someone that only drank Pepsi for 6 days a week and on the seventh day she ate. I kid you not...that was her weight loss plan. Maybe I could do that!!!! Yes. I’m ashamed to admit that I thought about those crazy ideas!
I thought about no so crazy ideas. What about the intermittent fasting..and only eating one meal a day? (OMAD). Keto? Atkins? South beach? My mind swirled with ideas.
I don’t have an answer yet. I know something has to change. A change in me personally? Maybe. A change in my weight loss plan? Maybe. A change in my exercise plan? Who knows.
I’m not jumping into anything right away. I’m stepping back to reevaluate. I’m stepping back to think. And I’m stepping back to give myself time to research my options...some different ideas...some different thoughts.
I’m still here. I’m still in the game. But I’m pulling out the playbook and figuring out my next move. And who knows...my next move might be a totally different plan, so stay tuned!!!!
I leave you with a picture of Mertz and she helps me research my next move in this weight loss journey!
alternate day fasting for four months
ReplyDeleteI am in the exact same spot! I have been "trying to lose weight" for years. Obviously what I am doing is not the solution, because I haven't lost all of it, and I don't keep off what I do lose. So I have also stepped back and asked "What needs to change?" Let me know what you and your cat come up with!
ReplyDeleteI am so happy to know you haven’t thrown in the towel. I was exactly where you’re at. You are doing the right thing. No crazy diet that is unhealthy. Take the time to evaluate what you want to do. I knew I need to find a health plan I can live with for the rest of my life. I think you and Mertz will figure it out. We know what to do.
ReplyDeletePaula C
I often ask my cats what I should do when I have a dilemma.
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ReplyDeleteStrange....I just put a post up asking for help.
I’m lost too....self sabotage is my nemesis