What is wrong with me??? I literally can't seem to stop eating! I tell myself that I'm going to get it under control. No more.......Yet when it comes time to eat I just eat with abandon! There is a war waging in my head and the fat side is winning!
Yesterday I literally stood in the kitchen putting some chips in a bowl and I literally told myself "Maryfran, you shouldn't eat these...you want to be thin" and I then immediately said "I don't care" and I ate the chips in the bowl. I sometimes say "tomorrow" or "my next meal I'll be good". But yesterday I just didn't care......but I cared about the numbers on the scale and how bloated I feel!
Hey, at least I am putting them in the bowl versus eating the straight out of the bag because we all know that if I did that....the bag would be gone in one sitting!
I am miserable and feel bloated and icky. I want to be thin and feel good about myself. Yet I want to eat what I want and when I want. I know I can't have it both ways! Yet I sit on the fence and often fall onto the fat side of the fence!
This is so difficult and I so wish there was an easy answer!!!!!
I seriously must be insane!
