Weight loss struggle
Over the last few weeks I have been struggling. My weight loss journey has not been easy. I have moments of pure success for sure. But those moments are evened out with weight loss catastrophe! And then August happened. It started with Jason’s birthday cake that I baked. Of course I had a piece. And I had a second piece the next night. And then we went away for the weekend and I splurged with a Cinnabon, a donut and finally cookies. We ate fast food and while I would have been happy with the sandwich, of course this food addict couldn’t resist the fries also. We came home from the weekend and it would have all been ok if I had simply tightened the reins. But no, I had opened the door wide and I couldn’t get it shut...the food frenzy continued.
Voice in my head
Losing control of my eating like that allowed the voices in my head, that negative reasoning that I am so adept at doing, to regain control. I call it my fat mini me. That is the ‘voice’ of reason (insanity) that talks me out of making the healthy choice. On more than one occasion I stood on the precipice of weight loss disaster and asked myself if I wanted to really eat that? Was it worth it? Did I want to eat and be fat or not eat and be thin? And that darn mini me voice/reasoning was so loud that I chose the path to disaster!
Control over my food addiction
This past week I started to regain some semblance of control over my food addiction. It has been a difficult battle, but one I am determined to win. I started to track my food. It wasn’t easy! The first day was horrible. I resisted eating anything that I had pre-tracked. But each day got better. It wasn’t a banner week, but it was a week of moving in the right direction. I’m once again making better choices and putting my health first when I make those choices.
The numbers on the scales
I weigh myself every day. So I saw the scales steadily climb this past week. It got terrifyingly bad. I tried to stay calm. There was no way that I ate that many calories to warrant a 6 pound gain. I tried to focus on drinking enough water along with my healthy eating.
And today, my weigh in day....I weigh...245.4. That is a three pound gain from last week. I’m not happy. But I can only blame myself!
It would be so easy to give up. And that is why so few people succeed in a weight loss journey. Losing weight is going to have ups and downs....highs and lows. However, success is not given to only those that never struggle. Quite the opposite, riding out the bad times is the key to successful weight loss.
You are very right and very brave to weigh every day. I have close relatives who have always been overweight/obese and they say (with great righteousness) that they never get on a scale...just gauge how much weight they are "losing" by how their clothes fit or how they "feel". It never works for them and would not work for me. They still weigh 160-200# at 5'2" and I maintain a maximum weight loss of 50# from 40 years ago. I'm 5'7" and at 130#. Keep on keepin' on!!
ReplyDeleteThanks! When I don’t weight it’s almost as if I have freedom to eat whatever with impunity! I need to keep a finger on my progress!
DeleteDid you fix how your are using My Fitness Pal ?
ReplyDeleteThe verified numbers all have a green check mark next to them. So the green checked mark numbers are accurate.
I only use numbers:
I have loaded myself from a nutritional label or looking them up carefully,
or those with a verified green check mark.
I would not recommend using any other numbers.
Most of the numbers I use, I loaded myself. And this can be a help/benefit. Load the numbers of the foods that help. Do not load the numbers of trigger foods. Only eat what is loaded.
Good decisions start at the grocery. (Flour and sugar do not HAVE to be in the house.)
I do not think people have to abstain from everything. But I think ALL of us have personal triggers.
I do try to use Only MFP options that I put in there myself. I will use random ones if I know it’s correct. If I don't have the time to put my own in...I will chose the highest caloric option. I have been using MFP for years (dear me is it over 10 years?). though so most of my stuff is added in.
DeleteI feel this. I am not making bad choices for my eating plan. I am probably eating to many calories though. Such a delicate balance losing weight is.
ReplyDeleteMy issue is definitely quantity also! Calories...types of food...not too many carbs...it’s crazy how many variables!!
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