But while I have indulged in some sweet treat or some decidedly unhealthy food on occasion, I have also sat back and made healthy choices during many more situations. We have had a carrot cake in the refrigerator for the last 5 days. I indulged in ONE small piece over the weekend. Jason has been enjoying the rest. Do I WANT a piece? Sure, it is delicious and I would love to have another piece. But I have chosen to say no. I have chosen to not indulge. And something crazy has happened.
I don't even miss not having it! Sure, I look in the fridge and see the cake and think about how delicious it is. But I don't sit there and have a mental battle with myself over eating or not eating a piece. I have had some unknown force of motivation take over and I haven't been tempted. And the most amazing thing? When I walk away I don't think longingly about what I gave up. I move on with my life and it is a none issue!
So really? Where in the world did the real MaryFran go???
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| Me standing beside a piece of art made from all Honda Car Parts |
Life is settling down after my week of car highs and lows. Work is still crazy, Monday they had me finishing up the training class that I have been leading for the last 6 weeks. And on Tuesday they had me take over the training for the new hires that started a few weeks back. This new class is in a much smaller room so I won't even be getting the steps that I got in the larger room as I go back and forth between their desks.
I haven't been walking on my lunch breaks and I am seeing a change in my bike riding. Not a good change either. (If you watch my youtube videos...the fist video about this will go live on at 4PM ET tonight ...Oct. 30......it's crazy......makes me laugh to watch the footage as I had a meltdown on my bike). So I am determined to get out on my lunch break and walk. I would like the two 15 minute breaks to be walking also...but that might be asking too much.
So I am trying to re-take control and get moving more. Jason and I are trying to ride our bikes around our neighborhood after work also. we have plans to pick up a light to make it work after the time changes also.
So things are still moving forward on my quest to be healthy and lose weight. It's just a REALLY slow process.