Let me start with the basics. I struggle. I struggle big time. Yet I continue to write. I feel like I write and do the same things over and over. And over. I make plans....I have excuses. I have some success...I have failure. It feels like a repeating cycle.
So why do I continue to write the same things each and every week?
After a bit of a pause (had to drive to work), I have come to the conclusion that I write for me. I continue to write because I am constantly learning and evolving. I continue to write to chronicle this difficult journey that I have been on for so many years. I continue to write because it gives me some small sense of accountability.
Why do I continue to try to lose weight when I am so obviously in a vicious cycle of small success then failure..success then failure?
I continue to push forward because I want to be healthy. I push forward because I want to live to be an old woman with Jason....and in a healthy manner. I continue to try because I want to buy cool clothes. I continue to plot and plan because I want to be fit and active.
It is hard. So many people stop writing when things get into this vicious cycle. But I’m going to continue on. I have big reasons to lose weight. If I keep writing I will keep learning and keep evolving. If I keep on, eventually this will all click and I’ll be victorious once again.
