Idyllic Memories
As I have gained weight and faught to restart and maintain this weight loss journey, I have sat back and wished for the picture perfect bubble that surrounded me when I lost weight the first time to reappear. I look back and it just was easy! I lost a bit...started my blog...joined weight watchers and then snapped my fingers and the weight was gone in a reasonable period of time. I have lamented this fact over the years, not because it was so easy then....but because it’s SO HARD now! What changed?
I figured out what changed and I figured it out quite by accident. When I started my blog I wrote for me. It was my ‘journal’ and I didn’t label/tag ANYTHING! As I write my posts now-a-days I remember posts that I wrote that go hand in hand with what I’m writing... but finding them amidst 12.5 years of writing and more than 2000 posts is a daunting task. So my current mission is to reread and label much of what I wrote for ease in recall. I started at the beginning. It was truly just a journal back then...and some days were really ‘dry’. I have found some awesome nuggets of information though. But more importantly, even though I have only made it through a very small segment thus far...I have seen a TRUE picture of my weight loss journey when I ‘did it the first time’. Let me tell you, it wasn’t the idyllic experience that my apparently faulty memory had created.
A brief rundown. In bullet point to make it easy.
**Before I began the blog I had weight somewhere between 315 and 330 pounds. I gave up soda and dropped mad pounds immediately. I got down to around 250. At that point I started writing on here. (At least that’s my memory of that period!)
**the first few months of this blog, I battled my way down to 225 pounds...on my own, but then regained back to 250.
**I joined weight watchers. My descent down the scales started again. However my memory that told me that I lost consistently through my weight sojourn at weight watchers? Faulty! The first weeks were consistent losses, but in reality it was a crawl, brawl and a battle that lasted for more than two years before I reached my weight watcher goal. I sat stalled and had to reset and restart myself while on weight watchers. I had bad weeks amidst the good ones.
My memory of that ‘idyllic weight loss’ were totally faulty! Thank heavens I started writing my experiences! The early posts may be somewhat dry...but they were just what I needed. The idyllic myth has been busted! Maybe now I can settle into the slow process of weight loss and stop lamenting that it isn’t as ‘easy’ as the first time around.
Panic
I was starting to really get worried. My trusty Kitchen Aid mixer was starting to give me grief. I have a tilt top/head and the bowl was not locking into place. Therefore, if I used the mixer for anything other than an easy stir (meaning no fast and nothing ‘stiff’) the bowl would wobble and fly off the base. NOT GOOD! I’ve been struggling with it for a few weeks. But this weekend Jason walked into the kitchen while I was fighting with it. He looked at it and said ‘It’s eaither the base of the mixer, which looks replaceable or your bowl.’ He lamented the fact that I don’t have another bowl to test it. I just grinned and dig deep into the cabinet above the fridge and pulled out my second bowl. What do you know? The other bowl works perfectly and looks tightly into place! What a relief! But boo....I’m back down to one bowl! Guess I’ll be shopping soon for another bowl.
The weekend
On Friday I did the grocery shopping, had lunch with some of my favorite people (my mom, my sister in law, my niece and my nephews). And I spent some time editing and reworking a few things on my ‘year of online dating’ chronicles. I am planning on publishing it. My working title is ‘Frog or prince: Adventures in online dating”. I figure it is just sitting there completed in my files. Why not publish! (I have a few other things out there that I have worked on over the years that I will probably work on getting published in some form in the future after frog/prince. That will clean up up my files and I can share some of the stuff that I have worked on over the years.)
On Saturday, we ran to the zoo and walked for a few hours.
And then we went for a bike ride on the Chesapeake and Ohio Canal.
It was hot and those two outdoor activities wiped us out...and filled our day!
On Sunday we chose to have a lazy day. We did run to my mom's to pick up a few of the things that were still there. The one thing was my headboard and my bed frame. For numerous reasons, we decided to use my headboard. I love it for one....but also because my brother made it (he is a professional woodworker) and I love him! And my bed frame doesn't have a footboard and neither of us like footboards.....and the frame we have been using (Jason's) has a footbaord. So we went and got mine and brought it to our new place. I then took the other bed frame/headboard/footboard down and put it in storage and set up the new bed. (same mattress and box springs). Other than that, we had a nice lazy day of hanging out and binging on movies!
On Sunday we chose to have a lazy day. We did run to my mom's to pick up a few of the things that were still there. The one thing was my headboard and my bed frame. For numerous reasons, we decided to use my headboard. I love it for one....but also because my brother made it (he is a professional woodworker) and I love him! And my bed frame doesn't have a footboard and neither of us like footboards.....and the frame we have been using (Jason's) has a footbaord. So we went and got mine and brought it to our new place. I then took the other bed frame/headboard/footboard down and put it in storage and set up the new bed. (same mattress and box springs). Other than that, we had a nice lazy day of hanging out and binging on movies!
