Gearing up!

Well, I just realized that I did not post anything last week. So let’s just get last weeks  weight out-of-the-way.  I maintained. I’m actually OK with a maintain  for last week. About two or three weeks ago I had decided that I was going to try to make wise choices with my eating but not worry about my weight until we move.  There are so many factors into that. Lack of prep time for food, limited kitchen use, stress of moving and packing, stress of mother crying about the aforementioned  move and just the normal issues I have had in the last couple years where I’m living.

So this past weekend I was packing, and I almost packed my scales. Seriously, I had made the decision to not worry about my weight… So why even weigh in. I couldn’t do it though! The scales stayed out because I have a weekly weigh in every Wednesday morning!   Well it’s Wednesday morning and I stepped on the scales.   I was pleasantly surprised.  I was down about two pounds. I’ll take it!  And for the record, the scale is now packed.

Including today (Wednesday), two days of work and two more sleeps before we move. I am absolutely giddy with excitement! I am concerned about my lower back, it has been tender for the last couple weeks. Luckily most of our furniture is light weight and we have a dolly.  We  also opted to pay for delivery for some new furniture… Namely a heavy couch.  But yeah...lots of lifting and carrying.   Oh and did I mention it’s a third floor apartment?  No elevator????   Yeah we wanted top floor...that was our first choice!   As for steps....good for us!!

We are both excited about beginning this new stage and phase of life and our enhancing our relationship and we are ready to do it with healthy habits. We have eaten so poorly of late that we are both excited about the fruits and vegetables and healthier choices that we will be more easily able to make. No promises when I begin, it will depend upon my back and how I handle the move.....But I’m also really looking forward to getting back into running. 

I’m gearing up for great things! In so many areas of my life love, wait, running. Life is full of promise and hope!!

Weigh in

So my weekly weigh in....246.    Still down from my high weight from the first of the year...but up from previous weeks.   But I know I did it to myself so I can’t say anything.

I’m keeping my food in check thus far this week.   And I’m tracking....so I know for SURE that I’m on target.  

That’s all.  For weight at least.

Back pain....yes my back has been so tender as of late. Is it my mattress (it was cheap when I bought it..and getting old)?  My excess weight?   My posture?   My lack of exercise?   I don’t know but I’m concerned...we are moving in 16 days...   so I am trying to stretch it...exercise it.  And I am working on my posture!  At work mostly.   I slouch in my desk chair...bad!  So the first thing I did was lock my work chair in the upright position.    Wow...that is rough ...so different!    The next thing I noticed?  When sitting straight I typically like to tuck my leg under me...sitting on one leg or the other.   This one is hard to break too!     But I’m trying! (I feel as if I’m falling out of the chair when my leg is not tucked!!).  The third thing I noticed...I usually lean to the left.  Even sitting up straight I lost leftward.   Changes...hard to fix but I’m working!

Moving....I am sooooo excited!   I have to curb my excitement because anytime I mention it near mom she bursts into tears.  I fairness, know that it’s probably worse because of dad dying...but she was lamenting me moving out months before Jason and I even made any plans.  She would make comments like ‘I just know you and Jason are going to want to live together someday and leave dad and I and I don’t want you to move.” And she would cry...months before dad got really ill.    So I’m constantly trying to curb my excitement!   Last. Igor I slipped and said ‘17 more sleeps’ and she just sobbed.   Sigh...........it’s hard being so excited but being made to feel bad about it.

16 more sleeps!!!!!!!

Weigh in

So my weekly weigh in....246.    Still down from my high weight from the first of the year...but up from previous weeks.   But I know I did it to myself so I can’t say anything.

I’m keeping my food in check thus far this week.   And I’m tracking....so I know for SURE that I’m on target.  

That’s all.  For weight at least.

Back pain....yes my back has been so tender as of late. Is it my mattress (it was cheap when I bought it..and getting old)?  My excess weight?   My posture?   My lack of exercise?   I don’t know but I’m concerned...we are moving in 16 days...   so I am trying to stretch it...exercise it.  And I am working on my posture!  At work mostly.   I slouch in my desk chair...bad!  So the first thing I did was lock my work chair in the upright position.    Wow...that is rough ...so different!    The next thing I noticed?  When sitting straight I typically like to tuck my leg under me...sitting on one leg or the other.   This one is hard to break too!     But I’m trying! (I feel as if I’m falling out of the chair when my leg is not tucked!!).  The third thing I noticed...I usually lean to the left.  Even sitting up straight I lost leftward.   Changes...hard to fix but I’m working!

Moving....I am sooooo excited!   I have to curb my excitement because anytime I mention it near mom she bursts into tears.  I fairness, know that it’s probably worse because of dad dying...but she was lamenting me moving out months before Jason and I even made any plans.  She would make comments like ‘I just know you and Jason are going to want to live together someday and leave dad and I and I don’t want you to move.” And she would cry...months before dad got really ill.    So I’m constantly trying to curb my excitement!   Last. Igor I slipped and said ‘17 more sleeps’ and she just sobbed.   Sigh...........it’s hard being so excited but being made to feel bad about it.

16 more sleeps!!!!!!!

Disgust

Yes I have been missing in action...and yes that usually means bad things on a weigh loss blog.

Crazily enough I have been holding on...staying within. A few pound range. Not really gaining...not really losing.  The bad part?  It’s not a weight range that I want to be in!!!

So I made a vow to work on this during the yalear 2018.  Thus far it’s been a bit of a failure. I want  to say colossal, but I am down about a pound...but for 2.5 months that’s not much...but it’s not a gain and it is a tiny tiny loss so it’s not a colossal failure!!!

On New Years I also vowed that my eating like crazy to the point of sickness was ending too.  Yeah this past weekend I did it again!

What is my problem??  Seriously?  

My clothes feel tight and icky and I’m just not happy!!

I have a good friend that is killing this weight loss thing this year.   She is doing amazing!!!   She is inspiring me to get serious!!!!!

But right now...I’m just disgusted with myself!!!