Belief in myself!: Avalanche

Grrrrr. Somehow my Saturday post didn't go live! So I guess another day where we have two posts!!

How do I want to die???

Do I want to die at the age of 50 when my hover-round that I may have to use at that point because of severe obesity, gets struck my lightening???

Do I want to die at the age of 60, after living in a nursing home for a few years all because of complications from my weight...diabetes, heart disease, burned out knees and hips...a body that can no longer stand the pressure and demands of an obese body???

But maybe....just maybe I can be 70 years old and standing on the summit of a mountain that I just hiked....and planning on hiking a thru-trip of the Appalachian trail.

Maybe...just maybe I can be 80 years old and biking the whole length C&O canal on a tandem bike with Jason!

Maybe at 90 or 100 or even plus some I will die. We are not immortal. But Maybe I will be the death that everyone talks about...the 100 year old lady that was out extreme skiing and died in a freak avalanche!!

There is no guarantee as to how long we live. I think we all know that. But there are choices that we make in our life that can influence the when and how....so my question is this....

How do I want to die??

I don't want to die when my hover-round /lark/wheelchair gets struck my lightening! I want to go out shaking my fist at the world and living life to the fullest!

So what does that mean? That means that right here and right now I have to make changes!!!! Now is the time to fix the unhealthy habits in my life. Now is the time to create healthy habits that will increase the odds of a healthy long lasting active healthy life!

I have slowly been implementing these changes.

I've been tracking my food.

I've been trying to increase my water intake (and tracking it)

I've challenged myself to 2017 miles in the year 2017 in an attempt to move more.

I'm really trying!

I want to live...and with Jason in my life, all of a sudden I want to live even more! I want to grow old with him and have a fun active life!

So this weekend I made a vow. This weekend I decided that my quest for my steps wasn't enough. I needed to step it up. I didn't aim big. I knew that there were two days that I would be leaving for work at 7AM and two days that I wouldn't be leaving until 9AM. My goal? Exercise two times! That is two outside runs. Optimistically I would like to get to the gym early on those 7AM days...but I set my goal at 2 days. I want to have a victory and not yet another failure!

This morning I woke up and laid in bed. It was dark outside. I knew I wasn't going out to run yet. I laid there and relaxed. And then I started to try to reason my way out of running! The weather was probably bad! It was dark. Was that a pain in my side???

Then I read a post on Facebook where some people were putting their daily goals out there. And they were aiming for 5 times this week! Or even more! Yeah...I felt like a wuss!!! I posted and declared my goals...and furthermore announced my plan to run!! Oh yeah..as soon as I did it, I kicked myself!!!

But it motivated me to get up and get dressed!!!

And then I looked at the dollhouse I am building. I worked on the porch and bay window last night...it was taped/clamped. I so wanted to see it. So I sat down, dressed for my run to check it out!!

Yup..looked good!

But then I thought about the bathroom and kitchen...the first two rooms I will tackle when it is completely done. I wanted to see how the bathroom stuff that I have would look and get an idea of the layouts!!!

I laid paper and drew some possible kitchen cabinets on the floor..

Yup..before I knew it it was 7:45...and I had to leave the house for work at 9! (my coworkers usually like me to be showered when I arrive at work..so I was really running out of time!)

I flew...because I was NOT failing! I stepped outside and my heart stopped!

Wet!!! It was raining!!! But I kept moving and got 2.2 miles in!!!

It was rough....slow...and just not a good run...but does that surprise me? No, my previous run was on thanksgiving day!!! That's a lot of time and I didn't expect it to be easy!

So this weekend was another fabulous one...we tried to stay moving and active with antique shops and looking through junk! (And antiques). We also spent a day at Arlington National Cemetery. We walked...no tour bus for us!!!