It was dark. It was cold. There was frost on my windshield. It was early!
I laid in bed going back and forth. Go to the gym? Stay home in my comfy cozy bed? Guilt over signing up for a more closer albeit expensive ($10 more a month...plus the start up fee) gym pulled me from my bed. Yes, I went to the gym this morning.
I wasn't there any great length of time. I went to use the treadmill. I went to put in a few miles on my legs. I didn't have grand plans to push it really far or hard. I want to ease back into running. By about mile two, my foot was starting to make it's presence known....not really painful, just aware. I'm going to look at that as a victory as a few weeks ago I could only make it through the first mile before I became aware of my foot issue!
Don't cheer too much. It was a brutal run. It was more a run a half mile and then walk a half mile. Treadmill running is for the pits and I always struggle to keep running the whole time! Regardless of the walk run dealio, I am happy with what I did.
As I was doing my thing on the treadmill at the crack of dawn this morning, I had the thought. I want to lose this weight. I want it down to the core of my being. Yet I struggled to get to the gym. Really? What do I expect? Do I expect the weight to melt off if I take a steamy hot shower? Do I expect the weight to disappear while I'm sleeping? Do I expect to lose weight while I'm shoveling movie theater popcorn that is smothered in butter into my mouth? WHY? Why do I insist on these bad habits and fight the good habits? I know they are NOT what I need to be doing to get to my goals.....yet I resist!
Seems kind of dumb to me!
I can't expect different results if I don't change my habits! So the question really comes into play.....what is more important to me? The results or the stupid habits that are slowly killing me?
Lets break this down......
The stupid habits....
** laying in bed and doing nothing versus going to the gym
**eating fattening food that tastes good
Results.......
**being able to run without stopping
**cool clothes
**thin svelte body (or as thin as it's going to be)
**being able to hike, ride roller coasters, go sky diving, or whatever my heart desires without the fears and constraints of being overweight....the sky is the limit, not my weight
**not feeling sick, stuffed and bloated from the foods I eat
Seems such a no brainer to me!
Today is a new day!!!!!!
Good job on getting to the gym today!!! Yes, it's a no brainer, but it's still hard as heck to get motivated to go.
ReplyDeleteIncidentally, life would be so much easier if a steamy hot shower would get rid of fat (and debt while we're at it).
Self-sabotage is the dam that stops all our free-flowing life through and it is something that all of us seem to have in common. I think the thing is integrity. If we make rules and stick to them, then that integrity can't be undermined by our whims of the instant gratification of doing nothing and eating crap. Easier said than done though hey?
ReplyDeleteI am congratulating you for getting out of the warm cozy bed before dawn. That is a HUGE victory.
ReplyDeleteI hope the weather gets better where you are. It is 65 & sunny here. Total opposite from last weekend. I took a short walk in the yard!
Lori
Kudos to you for getting up and working out!!!
ReplyDeleteSigh...I wish I knew what to tell you. I just don't understand why, if broccoli is so great for us, it doesn't taste as amazing as a Krispy Kreme doughnut. Or why, if exercising is so good for us, it's not as attractive as soaking in the tub or lounging on the couch with a bowl of popcorn and watching a movie!