Accepting responsibility

I accept complete responsibility for what happened today.  It was 100% my failure. I can't blame it on anyone other than myself!

What happened?   Today was my weekly weigh in and it wasn't spectacular.  OK, so it wasn't all that horrible either.   

My weight fluctuated madly last week.  I was down and excited on Monday, disappointed on Wednesday and showing signs of progress again by Friday (still not as low as Monday though).  Normally my weight does NOT fluctuate that much.   If I take the average of those three weights, my weight for last week was 231.7.  

I had a relatively bad eating weekend.  I know what I have done, and I know how to fix it. (ha ha ha, say no to donuts......and fried cheese.......and vending machine food!)   I didn't know what to expect when I stepped on the scale today.  I hadn't stepped on the scale since last Friday.  Much to my shock I was 231.6.   At first I was disappointed because a week and a half ago I was a pound or two less.  But then I started to think about my weight through last week.  I'm going to call this week a maintain since I was dead on with my 'average'.  

Yes, I am thinking creatively....but shouldn't we sometimes think outside the box?

So where does this put in in terms of my Love Bites Valentines day Challenge?  Well....a lot worse than I assumed just a few minutes ago.   Yes, I had somehow counted four weeks until my Valentines weigh in when I was sending out my accountability emails....and while my goal was attainable by a long stretch, when I realized that my counting was off (how could I have counted four instead of three???) I now know that it is almost insurmountable.    You see, I would need to lose 11.6 pounds in 3 weeks.   3.9 pounds a week.  HA HA HA.  I'm going to push forward.  It's not so much as getting TO the goal (although on one of these mini challenges I'm making for myself I DO want to reach my goal....it didn't happen with Saving Christmas either.)  It's all about me making strides TOWARD my goal and I will call it a success if I get to the end day and I can show that I have lost something!  

So here I am.  I've accepted my role in not showing a loss and I am readjusting my motivation and determination. This journey is one that requires constant fine tuning and adjusting as our lives are definitely NOT static.   Things change from day to day and with that, it means that we sometimes need to change our methods and habits on a daily basis.   We need to roll with the punches and learn how to navigate!   It may seem crazy and not worth it...but I know.....it is SOOOO worth it and I have the pictures to prove it!!!!

I WILL conquer this!