I wondered if it was the high from running the Krumpe's Donut Alley Rally. Hmm, it could be. Running a race imparts a certain energetic vibe is motivating. But seriously, I had run the Paws on the Pavement this year and didn't get any kind of motivational umph.
Then today I saw this on facebook this morning and I realized........
This friendship that was couched in 'encouragement' was actually negative to me. In terms of running, looking back, running with a partner that would never run beside me but always paced herself 5 feet ahead of me was negative. What kind of motivation is that? I could NEVER catch up. I was always chasing her down. It's no wonder I was running horrible. Her actions were feeding my mind. They were making me feel insufficient and incapable.
I stopped running with her, and completed the Krumpes run at the same time and I realized that it was all in my mind. I couldn't run because my mind told me that I couldn't run. My MIND told me that I was incapable and not a runner. It doesn't matter who or why the thoughts were put into my mind. They were there and I believed them. The minute the negativity left...my mind cleared and I began to soar!
Now, if I can just get back to running and not feel like I need to collapse for a bit to recover after a measly 2.5 mile run, followed by a day of napping, I will be good! But that's a whole different story!
As for running, I ran those two short runs last weekend. Other than that I have taken two weeks off. I'm planning on running this weekend and starting back onto my training schedule. I am hoping the exhaustion will right itself with time.....and maybe some of the exhaustion is lack of exercise in my life!
Eating....lets not talk about it...however....this moment, right now, right here is the time to fix it. No waiting until Tomorrow, or Monday....it's right now. On a good note, I have tracked!
A training partner who won't run with you? No thanks! Good for you for ditching her and standing up for yourself.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you were able to purge that negativity from your life and come out better for it. I'm afraid an experience like that would've turned me off of running forever.
ReplyDeleteThe quote about "the hard is what makes it great" is from one of my favorite movies of all time! Made me smile seeing it here.
I don't think we fully understand just how powerful our minds are and how those negative thoughts become reality.
ReplyDeleteGood for you for standing up for yourself and getting rid of the negativity.
I'm concerned about the exhaustion. I know you want to keep running, but please listen to your body rather than the training schedule to know when you've had enough.
Lori
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Did your running partner ever say why exactly she ran so far ahead of you? How odd. Are you still sick? Hope you are feeling better.
ReplyDeleteI hope you get to feeling better soon. I'm sorry you lost a friend, but after my experience with the Walking Buddy - I'm come to realize that running and walking are pursuits that are actually better done alone. It gives you time to think or to even not think. When someone is with you - you tend to focus on them and the companionship is nice, but sometimes being alone with yourself is even better.
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