Old Habits Die Hard

My world has fallen apart things with my husband went from bad to worse.  There is a silver lining in that, because sometimes you have to reach rock bottom before you can move on.  So we reached rock bottom.  The bad part?  You don't reach rock bottom and immediately have things resolve.  Rock bottom means that there is a new start. Where the new path leads, I don't know yet...but at least I'm on a path.    Simultaneously with that I had a handful of friends stab me in the back (metaphorically).   I was not exercising with my previous intensity due to this foot problem.  I was reeling from everything and it set me up for some bad bad things.

 I  reverted back to long known habits.  Comforting habits.  Friendly habits.  Yes, I eat.  I don't say no when a piece of cake is offered.  I don't say no when I'm asked to bake cookies.  I don't restrict myself while baking those said cookies.  No is not a word that is in my vocabulary when it comes to food.  I haven't gone totally off the cuff, but lets be honest, it's not good.  

When one thing falls away I seem to lose it in all aspects.  What does that mean?  It means that I've been sporadic at best with my exercise.  Once again...not good.

So the old habits have reared their ugly head and I succumbed to the pressure.   Since the beginning of July when all of this started (that is when I slowed down my exercise due to my foot). I have pretty much not lost any weight.  I have wasted two almost two months!   That makes me angry!

So baby steps.  I'm going to focus.  I can do this.  I know how to do it.  I want to do it.  I want to be in control of my life and I WILL be!

Today.....my focus is getting my water!   Like I said, baby steps.  I need to drink my water.   Yes, I'm going to try to keep my calorie intake under control.  But the ONLY thing I'm worried about is water.  Ohhh and I already ran today!!!!!!!