I saw this the other day and little did I know that it was going to have such a profound impact on my mentality later this week. Yesterday I listened to my body and did no exercise. I was starting to feel better but just still felt sluggish and run down. I did however have to do some work in the kitchen. Mainly, I had to make cookies for a workshop that our business is hosting on Saturday and I had to make Chocolate covered cherries (filled with cheesecake filling) for a co-workers going away party today (Friday). I ate my food...and then I had a cookies worth of cookie dough and a baked cookie. I then had a chocolate covered strawberry. Yes, I went over my allotment of calories for my day. Yes, I tracked!
I had planned on making a few kinds of cookies. I however stopped baking midway through my baking marathon. Why? Because I knew that I had already consumed too much and that if I kept baking, I would consume more. I KNEW I would. There was no talking me out of it. I KNEW it would happen. So I stepped away from the kitchen.
I am at war with myself. Part of me wants to scream that yesterday was a total failure. I didn't manage to stay within my 1300 calorie goal. HOWEVER, I was only slightly over 1500 calories. I didn't blow it and eat 3000 or 4000 calories. I went over by 200 calories. Which is still a respectable calorie count. Was it what I am for? No. Was it terrible? No. So I am going to count yesterday as a victory. It could have been MUCH MUCH worse....but I kept my eating in line to lose (just not at the rate that I normally do). Meanwhile, I learn from my mistakes. :-) That is what is making me stronger!
Today...potluck at work. GRRR I'm really going to do my best to keep this under control today!!! I don't know what dinner holds, so I can't even say I've got 'such and such amount of calories." So I am being tested and I WILL SUCCEED!
