However, I woke up and I felt like curling up on the couch next to my cat Desi. (Actually Desi is my husbands cat...he doesn't like me all that much, he sorta tolerates my presence). My mornings tend to be more on the lazy side. I lay in bed and read a bit. I get up and mosey to the couch and play around checking all of my various on-line sites that I visit. It's a bad habit that formed on the days that I don't have to be at work until 10. It's one that I know that I need to break. But it's just so tempting to curl up like a cat and sleep.
However, I knew that curling up on the couch wasn't an option. So after I dropped my husband off at the studio (still sharing a car) I came home determined to get on the exercise bike and get some kind of activity into my morning. I walked through the kitchen and looked at the sink. There were dishes in the sink. Yes, dishes! Dirty ones! Now mind you, I hate house cleaning..I do it of of course.... but a few dishes in the sink would not have caused the end of the world in my house. I could have tacked them onto the dinner dishes tonight and it wouldn't have been any skin off my back (it was only two glasses, a coffee cup, a bowl, a plate and a few pieces of silverware). But no....my mind just said "MaryFran you HAVE to do these dishes now!" So I did the dishes (our dishwasher is leaking and while we know that it is just the intake hose, Todd hasn't gotten around to fixing it......so I am doing dishes by hand). Of course pushing off exercise was not a problem.
While I was washing dishes it occurred to me that I really needed to make my bed. Seriously! No, I couldn't delay making the bed. I had to do it right then there was a burning need within me. I had to do it before the cats settled onto the bed for their first cat nap of the day! Of course, this was once again pushing off exercise but that wasn't a problem was it? After all, there were much more important things to do! However I started to realize that my mind was trying to sabotage my efforts to exercise. These things were not important. You see, I don't always make my bed. GASP! But it's true, sometimes it doesn't get made, and the world does continue to spin on its axis. So why was I gung ho today? There was only one thing. My mind was at war with itself. Crazy eh????? I made that bed...determined to go straight to the exercise bike afterward!
Best laid plans though......Of course I had made my discovery about my self sabotaging, so I was thinking about exercise. And that made me think about zumba......and it reminded me that I didn't have my clothes out for zumba. I pack my clothes and take them to work. Even though there is time for me to go home to change between work and zumba (about 15 minutes), I know that if I go home I would NEVER make it back out the door. So of course I took a few minutes to pull out my workout gear.......My mind at this time TOTALLY knew what was happening. Instead of letting it beat me, I vowed to not let it get me down! Even as all these thoughts went through my mind I decided that I had to get pictures of my day for this blog.....GRRRR that took a few more precious minutes of my morning.
No fears though. I STILL got myself onto that exercise bike!!! It wasn't a long ride. It wasn't a super strenuous ride. However, I wasn't aiming for distance and I wasn't aiming for super strenuous. Tonights zumba is my kick A$$ workout! This morning was simply to get my body moving. To do SOMETHING. Any kind of activity was what I was aiming for. Because 15 minutes or 30 minutes is SOMETHING. You see, if you NEVER do it; you will never get there. Something, anything equals everything!
I'm still rolling. Determination rules every step I take. Failure is NOT an option!!!!!