I've started rereading through this journal. It has been interesting. I have looked back at my initial weight loss with rose colored glasses. I have thought and said about how easy it was. It wasn't. I was more focused. I was single minded in my focus. I was so single minded in my focus that I had family members worried about me. I knew what I wanted and I was determined that come hell or high water I was getting there. I need that single minded focus back. I need to focus on this weight and nothing else. Let the trees fall around me....I see only my weight loss efforts. If it's important, it will still be there when I come through the trees on the other side.
One other thing I'm picking up is those first feelings that I encountered and worked through as I accepted the fact that I was fat and that I needed some help.
Some of the reading is dull and repetitive...it's me rambling about what i ate, how I was working through situations that popped up. My attempts to start a regime of exercise. But it is rekindling that feeling of hope, that feeling of excitement within me.
Today I walked with Sherry I from over at TwoGirlsMamma. It was good for me. It was good to talk and walk with my friend of course. But it renewed me on my journey. I can do this. I can do this with a single minded focus (she remembers that single minded focus I had back then. I can do this without deprivation to myself. I can do this by modifying small things within my life. I CAN DO THIS.
You didn't hear me????? I CAN DO THIS!
