I'm an addict. My addiction is food. I eat when I'm happy, I eat when I'm sad. I eat to celebrate and I eat to forget. Last week I totally succumbed to the addiction....I tried to feed my sadness away. I tried to eat so much that I would forget the pain I feel inside me. I finally came up for air and then I hated myself even more for the abuse that I did. In reality, I didn't eat 4 cakes, 6 dozen cookies, or other crazy things. I just made poor choices. I'm embarrassed to say how many times I ate at Burger King. yes, Burger King...and I don't eat fast food. Poor choices.....but still feeding an addiction that burns brightly in me.
How will I overcome. How will I beat this sadness that is threatening to take over me, lock stock and barrel? I don't know. But I do know that food is NOT the answer. Now if I can just convince myself of that each time I go to the kitchen!
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great to see u back .....in the post below it you say how u ate fast food a couple motnhs ago do u think thats were it all started again i know it did for me i gave in once and ballooned up 30 pounds again before i knew it ...i gave in a lil here and alil there...its ridiculous and it truely is an addiction....i am juicing now and eatin great for the past 13 days but i know if i take a bite of a frickin french fry im done for and i cant imagine y it happens that quickly ...i wish u the best of luck ...its a hard journey but we can do this ...hugsss
I actually had not eaten at fast food since then until this last week. I don't knwo what happened. It was easy....it was quick and easy food that I could shovel into my mouth and forget my sorrows for a few minutes.
food is like heroin it only makes you happy for a bit then you need another fix, or like me i eat till my body is in the same pain my soul is, and we both know that's dumb and not productive at all. sending you positive energy and prayers darlin, if you need me YELL ofr help that's what friends are for!
I think what makes food addiction so different from other addictions is that you still need to eat where you need to stop using/doing what you are addicted to.
Have you considered some therapy? I don't mean it badly, but I have come to realise often there are some underlying emotional causes of food addiction for most of us.
You have lots of support from the online community....please don't forget about us and lean on us in times of need!
Made to Crave: Satisfying Your Deepest Desire with God, Not Food by Lysa TerKeurst
It could help. Good luck to you!
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