I'm still around. I"m holding on to the very edge of this healthy thing by the slighest of grips. I want to lose the weight so much. I want to be thin again and have energy. I want to be confident and feel good about myself again. I want to wear all those wonderful clothes that are shoved in bins in the corner of my closet. I want it. And today, I read a blog and I had this sense of "you can do it' pour over my body. Check out Michelle if you have the chance. I have been following her for quite some time. I read years back when she was first losing...I celebrated from the other side of the country as she completed her first Triathlon....I grinned when she announced she was pregnant the first time.....and the second time. And I felt her worries as she struggled with her weight gain after she had the kids. (which are adorable by the way). She is most inspiring because she is doing it. She's a normal woman that has normal struggles (fast food that beckons, time constraints, kids and husband demanding attention, etc) but she does it! And she is continually pushing herself. She is truely amazing.
Soooo all that to say. I am going to do this. I've got some injuries. My foot is still not heeled, my left knee....the back has some kind of muscle thing going on. My arthritis in my right knee is out of control. My finger is still tender. But you know what. I can do it. I'm going to zumba tomorrow night. Gonna see what I can do (the foot...grr....the left knee, it's a muscle thing it tenses up or something so as long as i"m moving it it's not to bad...the arthritis, the only thing to make that better is to get the weight back off).
I've put my food into my tracker for today......it's not gonna be easy....I had leftovers from the pizza party I had last night (leftover pizza and raspberry cobbler for breakfast...yummy...but not exactly healthy!). I have the rest of the day planned so I should be ok with my eating and not go TOOO far over for the day. I'm gonna do this.
glad you're hangin in hon, its been up and down with me too. i feel like i lost the same 20 pounds and gained it 100 times in the last 5 years but i'm gonna get to onederland gosh darn it! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
ReplyDeleteMy response to your comment on my blog: I know you've been around since the start. I check in on your blog every now and then, hoping you are finding your way. Not stupidity, please. We learn something new with every setback. Your journey is just as it should be, just what you are ready for it to be. You CAN do this again. I know I always get teary when I read other people's big accomplishments too, I KNOW what the struggle is, I know how important this all is. And yes, fast food, wine, crazy eating - it's all part of the journey. I look forward to watching your journey.
ReplyDeleteMy response to your blog: YOU CAN DO IT!! Now you are making me teary. Try to shift the focus from what's wrong with your body to what's right with it. Try to think about what you CAN do, and do that. Baby steps, start smell, set low, attainable expectations. Remember, I didn't change my diet and start exercising all at once. I did one, then the other. Do what you can. The point is to build confidence and successes and to believe in yourself once again. The point is NOT to eat a certain number of calories and do a certain amount of exercise. This is SO important. You can do it!
It is well my friend. You can do this. It may take time but eventually, you will see thin again. :-)
ReplyDeleteI'm still here with you MaryFran rooting you on. I'm with Michelle, YOU CAN DO IT!!! I think putting more focus on doing things that make you happy will help too. I find the being outside is what fills me up emotionally the most and spending time with other people.
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