I was thinking about this whole thing and I've realized that I'm just plain disgusted with myself. Disgusted that that I seemingly have no control over myself (as weird as that sounds). Disgusted at what i eat. Disgusted at what I weigh. Disgusted at how my clothes fit (or don't fit as the case may be).
Yes, it's my fault...but that doesn't stop the problem or take away the self disgust.
